When the demon asks for you to play
The triggers are the same as they've always been
It's the fact that you've presented yourself openly
When the demon walks right in
Never be dependent on another physically
Always find a way to be independent
The world is a dangerous place full of dark terrors
Love and unconditional love, exist but are rare
Be open to change, be open to love
Be open, but not by force.
It certainly is difficult when you open up
and the first friend that you thought you trusted takes a righteous liberating swing
We quickly divide the wheat from the chaff
Remember not to take it all so seriously
The world is changing quickly
Life is changing quickly
To be truly unconditional in your sharing means being open
It means being vulnerable
It means being open to attack to those that would attack
And no one can stop every attack
No matter how high their defences
Take basic steps to steer clear of obvious situations
But seek to trust more and more people in a group or community setting
It's so hard at times, yes, I agree
But without this depth to the difficulties there would be no reward like we have so long enjoyed
I love you earth,
I love you night,
I love you sky
I love you hate
A need to justify
Where did it go wrong?
The crow caughs in my ear loudly reminding me of some long lost secret
There's a power within the human, passed on by trauma
In this trauma we recreate experiences of the past within other humans
Allowing for more trauma
Chances to change, we get so many
I don't want to be this angry being anymore
But this demon has invoked me so well
And I fell for the bait and got out
To think that I can help people
This is probably the crux of the issue
Then in a moment of complete vulnerability on a day I think I'm getting somewhere with them
Out comes the knife in a most unexpected way
This time I exploded
I was an atomic bomb
I screamed in their face
While they took the power trip of me losing control in
Never again, never again, I said.
Never again, what?
I say to myself now.
Never again will I go out of my way to help people
Because I feel like I can
Because I feel obligated to do so
Because I can see why they are experiencing so much pain and want to show them
Because everyone of these people are like that for a reason
And their own choices on their own path,
Choosing to follow whichever demon's whisper
Is their choice
And I cannot change a cause by alleviating the symptoms.
The cause being a core decision to never change
I don't want to be this angry thing anymore
I don't want to be so well defended like I have been
So many have defences against me
I open myself up and someone cuts me deep
I must at least expect it to a degree
Should I
And this expectation leads to creating what I expect
Because every judgement and expectation and moral law
Is a doorway in for the other's shoulder phantasm to cuss
How to remain clean and enjoy life
How to keep the energy high without losing it in defences against people that have made their choices
I'm so scared.
I've never been so scared in my life
I enjoy what I've come back to
I enjoy what I am now because I have become much more open
I can speak about people's lives and actually have interest
Without having to plan how to get out of the conversation
I'm actually interested
I've never been like this, unless I'm drunk
And I'm not drunk
I don't want this situation to close me up again
Please God, keep me open
I want to feel pain
But I want to deal with it better
I want to experience life
Real life
Real happiness
Help me in my chains, I need to feel you are there.
I love myself,
I adore myself,
I love life,
I adore life,
I love this earth
I adore this life
I love this person
I adore this person
I love this sun
I adore the sun
I love the trees
I adore the trees
I love people
I adore people.
There was a time when I wanted everyone dead through some selfish judgement of human behaviour
As the only way out for the planet or humanity
Now I see there is a way
There is an underlying culture of sharing
Within everyone of us
And we can all attach to that
And bring it back
There is the choice.
To share unconditionally without conditions
Well that's what that means.
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